My Introduction!

HI, My Name is Sheila also known as Sidonia.. Sid for short. I'm 32 years young! ha and have four vibrant daughters. My eldest is 9, twins 4 y.o. & a 2 y.o. I'm also a small business owner and soap maker. This is my first time ever writing about my life and passions. I have never quite grasp the concept of sharing my life with others and been closed in most my life. Well that stops now. I am on a new path, to share my heart & passions, learning's & experiences and even my creations! Life in a box has been no fun, limiting myself has stricken me, and I feel stifled. My mind and body has suffered and the growth of my children as well. Religious beliefs try to conform me and isolate me from the world as a whole. You know the saying divide and concur.  Well a few months ago I began the search within and the lines began to blur, I have begun to see beauty in all beliefs and differences and am now seeing life quite different. I have begun to see God in me! I am realizing I created this world I'm in and If I want something different, If I am to be different. I must start with me. Its time for me to create a new world in me. I want to share the joys and pains of my new awareness of my being. The ups and downs. The journey to my enlightenment! My physical and spiritual transformation. To be honest with myself and you. Am I ready (laughing nervously at this very question) my mind says no, but my heart, My Heart says Yes do it, its time. Love starts with self. wow this is harder than I thought to write I Love Myself Exactly as I am, in the state I'm in brought a tear to my eye. Is this the start to my healing, i hope so.  Blessing, be back soon ~Sid